Generally I'm a quite kid, I don't do anything bad, or say anything terribly bad to people. But generally speaking I don't want to hurt people's feelings.
There is many reasons to my madness. I tend to think with my head rather than my heart. I may seem rash and sudden sometimes, but I freak out when I don't know what I'm doing next in the whole general picture of things. I may have a messy room, but I like order and organization, and what comes next. Saying that, I generally am not the time to get too emotional on people, the only case is if i see something sad or what I find really emotional. I'm not a big fan of hugging certain people, I find couples and their 'cuteness' kind of gross, and generally the whole flirting with guys and doing a figurative tribal dance annoying and pointless.
Case in point, one of my best friends has this issue that too many guys have things for her, now I do wish that a guy would not look at me in a 'just friends' way, but I find her manners a bit odd. Today I drove her to a party and she decided to leave with the guy she might have feelings for. Now it annoys me that she could have told me that I wasn't taking her home, and also that when it comes to the guys in her life, I have a fairly good idea whats going to happen.
Last time that occurred, I told her not to dance with a guy; she did and he still isn't over her. I told her to be careful with the guy shes flirting with now, because I don't think he's that into her. He's a 19 year old guy who is into anyone who will flirt back with him. He's also abrasive and sort of an ass, taking things way to literally. Like he asked what is my dream car; I said anything that runs. He informed me cars don't run they drive or whatever. He's always like that. I'm just afraid my friend is going to go after something that is not there, or is not good enough for her.
I don't know. I won't tell her this stuff all together, I've told her bits and pieces because I'm afraid of the outcome. Maybe I need to listen to my heart more often, or get a boyfriend.
